During 1976, after drinking for several days, “I was disgusted with myself. I went into a bar; the owner wouldn’t serve me.” John wondered “Why is this happening to me? My wife didn’t want me at the house... there was no place for me… I was thinking about suicide when I got splashed by a passing truck. A voice inside of me said, its all over now Jay, you can go home. In that instant, everything changed and I accepted that I was an alcoholic… I surrendered.”